Friday, 20 July 2012

Ticking away the moments...

We are often obsessed with time lines, deadlines,time slots...anything that is related to time. Some people have more (read too much) of it than they need , and others simply don't have enough.  When  you think you have it, it runs by like a rabbit, and when you are bored and don't really need more time on your hands, it does a 'comme un escargot'.  It is quite maddening!!!

The reason I got to thinking about time all of a sudden are basically two.

 Uno: My friend G is leaving for a masters course in the US. We had thought we have all the time to meet a few friends and take trips and hang out. So we had planned trips every weekend and checking out restaurants almost every day and the like. Mostly, none of it is gonna materialize, because she is leaving next thursday. I knew she was going to leave by July end, but apparently, it came too soon for my liking ( as inevitable (y bad) things always do). And the sent-off party of sorts we had planned fell through due to time constraints and family emergencies etc. Anyway, so that's that and she is leaving  for two years...sigh!!!

Secundo: It is EXACTLY one year since I came back from London. And it is almost time for me to leave as well. I have enjoyed staying at home, I really have. But inactivity isn't exactly my friend either. I am not the most active person on the planet, but even through my haze of laziness, I hate sitting at home all day, every day and watching tv or movies. I have had quite enough of that. So, I am leaving for Austria for a second masters in September. The first 6 months of my course is there. Then I spend a year in Italy and another 6 months in Germany. And here's the best part, I got a full scholarship yaayy!!! That should be fun. If these places are as beautiful as the Internet has led me on to be, I am in for a treat...and a ;)

I am both excited and apprehensive about this whole thing. Excited because of the obvious, I get to meet new people and visit new places. Apprehensive because, I am leaving behind 'the familiar' all over again and will have to adjust to new surroundings and people yet again...I can't wait to leave though... Due to a not-afore-mentioned tertiary reason, I think it is too soon to leave as well... But then how soon is too soon really?  I'm confused....!!!  Maybe more time will clear my head (or confuse me further...sigh!!!). 

                                                            "And you run, and you run
                                                             To catch up with the Sun...
                                                             But it's sinking, racing around
                                                             To come up behind you again.........."

Monday, 16 July 2012

Some things I want to let you know...

There is something in you,that reminds me of my favourite flowers.....a freshness,an austerity..a something..:)
You make me laugh, you make me think, you make me blush (which is no mean feat, I assure you )...You get me, what I think, what I'm trying to say, better than anyone ever has (which,incidentally, creeps me out big time sometimes, but it is nice in a way). Your perfume reminds me of  the ripe golden leaves in Autumn (weird euphemism, I know,but it really does). When I sat on that park swing ,holding your hand, I knew it wouldn't be easy to let go of this one. Stringing words together isn't exactly my forte, as you very well know, but I want to let you know, that it did mean something. Maybe it isn't forever, but that doesn't make it any less. All I know is that it matters a great deal to me now...